19 months and its 99% over

My divorce was final on 12/3(3 days before my 50th birthday) but I got the notice in the mail today!!! How do I feel, you ask? Well, I feel empty, relieved, happy, sad, broke, and like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. There’s just one more detail that has to be taken care […]

A light at the end of the tunnel..

“He has surrendered to my terms” is what the email said from my lawyer yesterday! Oh happy day!!! It only took a little over 15 months and a lot $$$$ to get to this point. So the papers will be drawn up and we await the signatures. Soon, this house will be mine and I […]

Constant reminders

Being in the wedding industry doesn’t help me get over my marriage ending. Every day, I talk with brides and help them plan their wedding and every day, I think about my situation. It’s their happy time and my sad time. I watched a really great documentary on HBO called 112 weddings. I would highly […]

Happy July 4th?

No plans for this holiday weekend???….well join the club. It came up on me fast and I put a couple feelers out but no bites, everyone else is busy it seems. Oh well, I will make the best of it. I can get some stuff done around the house, relax, enjoy time with the dogs. […]

Moving forward..

On the legal front, my lawyer is preparing for a Master’s Hearing since he hasn’t or won’t sign the last proposal that we sent. This is getting so old and costing me so much. I hate not knowing what to expect. I just want this be over so I can start to rebuild my life.

What a difference a year makes

I can’t believe that it’s been a year. Remember when you were young and a year took for ever? As you waited for your birthday, summer break, Halloween, Christmas, you know, the biggest things in a kids life.. As an adult, a year seems to go by so quickly. This past Sunday marks 1 year […]

What time is it?

Time is powerful. It helps to heal, when you are in physical pain or sad or in mourning of a loss. Sometimes it seems to go slowly, when you are excited and waiting for something. Sometimes it goes fast, like when you look back at the last year and say “where did the time go?” […]

Tears

I admit that I am a pretty emotional person, so much so that I can even cry during some commercials, depending on the subject. You know… those specific beer commercials they show during the Superbowl for example? If I see someone crying, I cry too. So of course, I have cried plenty of tears since […]

Too much alone time

It’s such a difference going from having someone to talk to every day for 25 years to being alone in this house. I have have 2 dogs and a cat but, well you know. I am alone a lot! As I mentioned before, I work from home so I am always in this house!! For […]

Coping day to day

As the days, weeks and months went by, after he left, I tried to stay busy. But that wasn’t always easy. I didn’t really have any hobbies or a lot of extra money to start one. I also didn’t have the motivation to do anything either. I had a little extra to meet a friend […]