When the ex gets remarried..

I have been trying to stay positive, but it has come to my attention, that the ex is getting remarried soon. The divorce was just final this past December! The feelings and emotions, swirling around in my head, are having quite the party. Did someone say party? I need to have a party! A party would get […]

Coping with more loss

A couple of weeks ago, one of my aunts went to heaven and this week, a very dear friend did too. Too much loss and sadness all at once. I have lost a lot of people in my life. It is never easy. My aunt was 88 and lived a good and long life. The […]

Mine, ALL Mine!

My house is officially MY house! I closed on my loan today. It is dispersed next Monday!!! I am so excited!! I can pay off all my debt, except for my house, and start saving some money. I cant believe that it’s been 20 months since my life changed FOREVER. So much has taken place; The […]

Thinking positive

Next Tuesday, I finally close on my loan so my house will be MY house! I cant believe it’s finally here!! I can finally pay off some things and people and start fresh with no debt, except for my house. I need to start saving money again. Mama needs to go on a great vacation this year! I […]

1 year and Closure

I have been writing for a year now. When I look back at what I have written and what I have gone through, I think, wow, I made it through one of the hardest things in life and I think I am doing pretty well, considering. I also sent “the letter”(posted in my previous blog). […]

It’s finally over!!!!!

It’s been a great week. Last night was my company banquet. I have worked for the company for almost 16 years. I won 2nd place for Sales Person of the year. I have won 2nd and 3rd place in other years as well. It’s great to get the recognition for your hard work. And today, […]

Curiosity

I have a way to see the ex’s facebook page, even though I am blocked from his page. I know I need to stop looking, but my curiosity is getting the best of me. I don’t look every day, in fact, over the last year and a 1/2 since he left me, I look less […]

19 months and its 99% over

My divorce was final on 12/3(3 days before my 50th birthday) but I got the notice in the mail today!!! How do I feel, you ask? Well, I feel empty, relieved, happy, sad, broke, and like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. There’s just one more detail that has to be taken care […]

Being bad feels so good.

I did something, that I knew was wrong but I did it anyway, and it felt so good to do it. The pick up of his items took place on Sunday. Yes I left everything outside in boxes and it happened to rain a little bit on them. Yes I sprinkled gold, green, and red […]

The remnants of a divorce

So today, his stuff was picked up! 9 am, right when it was scheduled. And it was such a shame that it was raining…..I say sarcastically, I had no qualms about putting it out in the rain. This has been 19 month in the making. It definitely didn’t have to take this long but he dragged […]