Leaving someone special

In the midst of preparing to move out-of-state, I am also dealing with leaving a man who I have grown close to over the last year and a half. During our time together, I have realized that he is not the man for me, at least long-term. I have even tried to break up with […]

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Breaking Up is Hard To Do

So far, this year, my 50th year on this earth, has been interesting. I started out the year officially divorced after 23 years of marriage. My house became MY house officially. Last night, after 1 year, my first real relationship, after my divorce, has come to an end. It’s sad but it had to be […]

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It’s finally over!!!!!

It’s been a great week. Last night was my company banquet. I have worked for the company for almost 16 years. I won 2nd place for Sales Person of the year. I have won 2nd and 3rd place in other years as well. It’s great to get the recognition for your hard work. And today, […]

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19 months and its 99% over

My divorce was final on 12/3(3 days before my 50th birthday) but I got the notice in the mail today!!! How do I feel, you ask? Well, I feel empty, relieved, happy, sad, broke, and like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. There’s just one more detail that has to be taken care […]

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Being bad feels so good.

I did something, that I knew was wrong but I did it anyway, and it felt so good to do it. The pick up of his items took place on Sunday. Yes I left everything outside in boxes and it happened to rain a little bit on them. Yes I sprinkled gold, green, and red […]

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The remnants of a divorce

So today, his stuff was picked up! 9 am, right when it was scheduled. And it was such a shame that it was raining…..I say sarcastically, I had no qualms about putting it out in the rain. This has been 19 month in the making. It definitely didn’t have to take this long but he dragged […]

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Almost over

Finally, this Sunday, I hand over the things that he wants from the house. Thank god it wont be him picking them up. He is having some family members pick it all up. I plan on having everything outside in the driveway and I will stay inside. I will have someone here with me for moral support. I […]

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So close I can taste it

So much back and forth, recently and legally. We are finally almost there!!! All signatures are done. He is being a real ass right to the end though. He said that he didn’t want to hand over the deed to the house until he could pick up his remaining crap from the house. I said […]

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9/15 is nothing special now

I didn’t even realize today’s date until I was wishing someone a happy birthday online. Today would have been my 24th wedding anniversary, but instead, its the tail end of my divorce. I am still waiting for to see the final papers with his signatures. I cant believe how fast time has gone, but how […]

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