9/15 is nothing special now

I didn’t even realize today’s date until I was wishing someone a happy birthday online. Today would have been my 24th wedding anniversary, but instead, its the tail end of my divorce. I am still waiting for to see the final papers with his signatures.

I cant believe how fast time has gone, but how long this process is taking, and how much $ it costs. Money that I don’t have.

Sometime, in the next few months, it will be official, and I can start fresh with my life. I did cry a little when I heard that he finally surrendered to my terms. I am sure that I will be emotional again when it is all over and done with. As many people before me, I will live through this huge and crappy part of life.

I am grateful for my family and friends who have been and continue to be there for me during this mess. I am grateful for my dogs and cat that give me a reason to get up every morning.  I am grateful to have a job that keeps me busy and my mind off of things for 8 hours a day and for the income it provides. I am grateful to be able to stay in the house, even though it’s filled with memories, at least we have a roof over our heads. I am also grateful to my fellow bloggers who follow me and read my words and thoughts. It really helps me get all this out of my head.

I am also grateful for the man, whom I met a little over a month ago. He makes me feel really comfortable, happy, relaxed, calm, and special. He makes me laugh, he is a good listener and a great story teller. He is young at heart, very considerate and understanding.

I still say my mantra every night before I go to sleep and it seems to be working. I hope I have some more final news soon.

Good things will happen!