Leaving someone special

In the midst of preparing to move out-of-state, I am also dealing with leaving a man who I have grown close to over the last year and a half. During our time together, I have realized that he is not the man for me, at least long-term. I have even tried to break up with […]

Breaking Up is Hard To Do

So far, this year, my 50th year on this earth, has been interesting. I started out the year officially divorced after 23 years of marriage. My house became MY house officially. Last night, after 1 year, my first real relationship, after my divorce, has come to an end. It’s sad but it had to be […]

Curiosity

I have a way to see the ex’s facebook page, even though I am blocked from his page. I know I need to stop looking, but my curiosity is getting the best of me. I don’t look every day, in fact, over the last year and a 1/2 since he left me, I look less […]

Dancing…

I am currently out watching a band perform. I am currently dating the guitar player in this band. The gig is taking place at a Moose lodge and there are about 50 people here listening and dancing. Needless to say, I am the youngest person here but I don’t mind. I am loving watching the […]

9/15 is nothing special now

I didn’t even realize today’s date until I was wishing someone a happy birthday online. Today would have been my 24th wedding anniversary, but instead, its the tail end of my divorce. I am still waiting for to see the final papers with his signatures. I cant believe how fast time has gone, but how […]

Back into dating

On the dating front, I met someone this week. He is really different then the handful of guys I have met so far. As scared as I was about the dating scene, I must say, it has gotten easier and I feel more comfortable going out on dates. You just have to relax and have […]

Constant reminders

Being in the wedding industry doesn’t help me get over my marriage ending. Every day, I talk with brides and help them plan their wedding and every day, I think about my situation. It’s their happy time and my sad time. I watched a really great documentary on HBO called 112 weddings. I would highly […]

Moving forward..

On the legal front, my lawyer is preparing for a Master’s Hearing since he hasn’t or won’t sign the last proposal that we sent. This is getting so old and costing me so much. I hate not knowing what to expect. I just want this be over so I can start to rebuild my life.

Making it work

I haven’t written anything in a little while. Nothing too exciting has happened recently. I am still waiting for HIM sign the last settlement agreement, then sign over the deed so I can get the house in my name. WHAT IS TAKING SO LONG?????? I hate that parts of my life are on hold and […]

What time is it?

Time is powerful. It helps to heal, when you are in physical pain or sad or in mourning of a loss. Sometimes it seems to go slowly, when you are excited and waiting for something. Sometimes it goes fast, like when you look back at the last year and say “where did the time go?” […]