Time for a change

I need to make my house MY  house. I painted the paneling in the living room and hallway.       It really brightens the room up! A girlfriend of mine said that the hallway wall was screaming for a picture that I shot from a vacation she and I took together. That got me thinking. I […]

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When the ex gets remarried..

I have been trying to stay positive, but it has come to my attention, that the ex is getting remarried soon. The divorce was just final this past December! The feelings and emotions, swirling around in my head, are having quite the party. Did someone say party? I need to have a party! A party would get […]

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19 months and its 99% over

My divorce was final on 12/3(3 days before my 50th birthday) but I got the notice in the mail today!!! How do I feel, you ask? Well, I feel empty, relieved, happy, sad, broke, and like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. There’s just one more detail that has to be taken care […]

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One step closer

2 different psychics told me back in February that my divorce would be final in 6-9 month from then. Well, it will be final in Nov so they were right! Today I signed the final divorce agreement so in about 30 days or so, I will be divorced officially. It took 15 months and a lot of $$$$ to […]

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9/15 is nothing special now

I didn’t even realize today’s date until I was wishing someone a happy birthday online. Today would have been my 24th wedding anniversary, but instead, its the tail end of my divorce. I am still waiting for to see the final papers with his signatures. I cant believe how fast time has gone, but how […]

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Constant reminders

Being in the wedding industry doesn’t help me get over my marriage ending. Every day, I talk with brides and help them plan their wedding and every day, I think about my situation. It’s their happy time and my sad time. I watched a really great documentary on HBO called 112 weddings. I would highly […]

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Mixed feelings

Today I am going to a wedding by myself, for the first time ever. My first thought is of sadness, since I am going through a divorce. My second thought is of loneliness since I’m going to it alone. I wonder how I’ll make it through the day emotionally. My third thought is of course […]

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What a difference a year makes

I can’t believe that it’s been a year.  Remember when you were young and a year took for ever? As you waited for your birthday, summer break, Halloween, Christmas,  you know, the biggest things in a kids life.. As an adult, a year seems to go by so quickly. This past Sunday marks 1 year […]

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Couple of updates..

When my nephew passed 3 weeks ago, I really struggled with the decision to let my soon-to-be-ex know the tragic news. He and my nephew had a pretty close relationship. My ex and I have not spoken since he left me last May, except through lawyers. I have no way to reach him so I […]

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