Time for a change

I need to make my house MY house. I painted the paneling in the living room and hallway. It really brightens the room up! A girlfriend of mine said that the hallway wall was screaming for a picture that I shot from a vacation she and I took together. That got me thinking. I […]

When the ex gets remarried..

I have been trying to stay positive, but it has come to my attention, that the ex is getting remarried soon. The divorce was just final this past December! The feelings and emotions, swirling around in my head, are having quite the party. Did someone say party? I need to have a party! A party would get […]

One step closer

2 different psychics told me back in February that my divorce would be final in 6-9 month from then. Well, it will be final in Nov so they were right! Today I signed the final divorce agreement so in about 30 days or so, I will be divorced officially. It took 15 months and a lot of $$$$ to […]

9/15 is nothing special now

I didn’t even realize today’s date until I was wishing someone a happy birthday online. Today would have been my 24th wedding anniversary, but instead, its the tail end of my divorce. I am still waiting for to see the final papers with his signatures. I cant believe how fast time has gone, but how […]

A light at the end of the tunnel..

“He has surrendered to my terms” is what the email said from my lawyer yesterday! Oh happy day!!! It only took a little over 15 months and a lot $$$$ to get to this point. So the papers will be drawn up and we await the signatures. Soon, this house will be mine and I […]

Constant reminders

Being in the wedding industry doesn’t help me get over my marriage ending. Every day, I talk with brides and help them plan their wedding and every day, I think about my situation. It’s their happy time and my sad time. I watched a really great documentary on HBO called 112 weddings. I would highly […]

Mixed feelings

Today I am going to a wedding by myself, for the first time ever. My first thought is of sadness, since I am going through a divorce. My second thought is of loneliness since I’m going to it alone. I wonder how I’ll make it through the day emotionally. My third thought is of course […]

What time is it?

Time is powerful. It helps to heal, when you are in physical pain or sad or in mourning of a loss. Sometimes it seems to go slowly, when you are excited and waiting for something. Sometimes it goes fast, like when you look back at the last year and say “where did the time go?” […]

Tears

I admit that I am a pretty emotional person, so much so that I can even cry during some commercials, depending on the subject. You know… those specific beer commercials they show during the Superbowl for example? If I see someone crying, I cry too. So of course, I have cried plenty of tears since […]