So far, this year, my 50th year on this earth, has been interesting. I started out the year officially divorced after 23 years of marriage. My house became MY house officially.
Last night, after 1 year, my first real relationship, after my divorce, has come to an end. It’s sad but it had to be done. In the long run, we just didn’t have enough in common to sustain a long term relationship. It was my decision. He is very fond of me but I just don’t feel the same about him in that way. We just were not the right fit.
He is a very good man, kind, generous, silly, loyal, sweet, patient(while I was going through my divorce), supportive, understanding, a great snuggler and a very talented musician.
He is also 15 years older then me, which I was concerned with in the beginning but it was not really an issue as time went on.
I think I may have gotten into a relationship too early as well. I am not a fan of being alone, since I with my ex for 25 years total. I think it’s time to learn how to be alone even though I don’t like it. Sometimes, you have to do things in life that you don’t like…like colonoscopies, which I am also due for, UGH!
I don’t regret spending time with him. I work from home so he tried to take me out as much as he could, so I could get out of the house. We did some fun things, went to the beach, antiquing, to the movies, out to dinner a lot, saw some musical performances, when he wasn’t playing in his own 2 bands. I saw his bands perform a lot! We went on 2 trips, to DC and to RI.
I will miss him and hope that we can be friends in time.
Currently, I am in a bit of a financial bind and need to make a huge change in my life. I really need to shake things up! I really need a change of scenery, get out of this house permanently. I have a couple ideas and am excited to see what is around the corner for me.